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why do ppl pretend to be nic to your face and then hate your guts inside



if they hate u so much y cant they just tell u rather than do all this shit behind your back

is it meant to make things better



i know no1 is perfect

but when ppl are closed how do they expect things to get better honestly

how can ppl blame me for things that are out of my control..



i apologise to those ive ever hurt and to those who have hurt me i hold nothing against u

how is it people have hurt me but because i dont show it they think nothing of it yet when i hurt them with no other way around it they think the worst of me and have no time to take logical thought into consideration

i dont like sounding so glum all the time but its just a thing ive noticed



any comments send me a message

I just feel so abandoned:|

y do people bother adding me as friends on sites as myspace etc without talking to me

i put myself out to everyone to talk to me and yet... some people dont even bother to return simple messages

fair enough if they take a few days to reply but lie never returning the messages at all:|



i just find that outright rude:|

i feel so abandoned that i cant even make friends with strangers sigh:|



i wish that someone would just be there for me:|

so i could trust in them:|



i know id be there for anyone and try my best to help them tho i know that no-one is there like that for me



it just gets to me so bad:|

no1 understands cos i live behind this facade of a happy life:|

Why do i have feelings for a certain person who i barely know..?



Why do i care so much about what everyone thinks of me?



Why would i do anything for this certain person at any cost to myself?



I question my identity to the point i question who i am.. why im here.. what i am.. and y i do what i do?



i dont trust my actions im insecure as hell



I wish i could depend on someone yet at the same time value my independance



Why cant i be accepted and wanted for who i am?



Imn scared to reveal my true thoughts and feelings for fear of ridicule and hurt